All that rejection and bullying throughout my life shaped me to understand that no matter how hard I tried, some people were just not going to be an Azara fan. Once I got past the hurt of that realization and the guilt of losing my religion, it was incredibly liberating. Now the only person whose opinion I care about is mine and it's a fantastic way to live. Not necessarily selfish, because I have standards for my behaviour and how it impacts J. and S., and I don't like myself if I'm being an asshole. But I digress...
Last night I went with a group of ladies to a water spa for my friend's bachelorette, and since my bikini doesn't fit post-S., I went in the saltwater pool nude once I'd confirmed the sight wouldn't irreparably traumatize the bride-to-be. Imagine my surprise when four of the other women promptly removed their bathing suits. Everyone had wanted to go au naturel, but was too shy to do so. Azara strikes again - woot woot!
I've always been very comfortable with nudity and really prefer not to wear clothes. It's not about exhibitionism - I don't want people to stare at me. I just enjoy the feeling of air, sun and water on my bare skin. I tried to talk J. into going to a nudist colony because I'd really like to sunbathe with nothing on, but he's resisted so far. Boo. So the clothing-optional spa pool was super relaxing.
When I walk in the door from work, the first thing I do is divest myself of all restrictive fabric, the tension of the day flying off me along with my bra. One of the reasons I detest people dropping by unexpectedly is because it means I have to go get dressed, which leaves them waiting for some time at the door.
It will be a significant change for me when S. gets a little older and I start having to wear clothes around the house, which I feel is necessary. I'm not sure why. I do feel it's inappropriate to go around naked in front of your kids past a certain age, which is contradictory to everything I just said in this post. I need to mull this over a bit more and figure out the reason for this feeling (yay, another chance to over-analyze something!).
What are your views on nudity?